I’m back!

It’s been a rough couple months... I haven’t felt motivation to blog on anything really aside from posting pictures on social media. Which I do give myself credit for at the least. I think its also important to take time off when you feel it’s necessary. For me, it was a complete lack of motivation to write about anything and that’s it, I didn’t realize it is exactly my kind of hobby and it truly makes me happy.
But I did take this time off to read a lot and learn instead and just give myself time to figure out what I’ve been feeling. I thought it was a fair trade I mean sometimes it’s mental health > anything else.

That being said I want to share what I’ve been going through because it is ultimately why I haven’t posted on here. Not a lot of people talk openly about how their depressive episodes effect their daily lives. That means all the days, all the nights, all the months, without a definitive ending. It’s hard to “be happy” when you feel like you are in limbo and struggling to find a greater purpose.
My limbo has consisted of trying to find a “real job” and it’s hard. I spent six years in college, switching majors and taking so many different classes just to try and find what I really liked and what would help me be successful. When I graduated I felt like once again I have no direction and it’s up to me to figure it out and that’s scary even in the middle of the pandemic. Everyone seems to have a job already and it’s not that I don’t have a “real” job because I nanny and that is a job, but it doesn’t seem like the type of job corporate office job everyone else has. I’ve come to realize it doesn’t matter and I will figure it out eventually, and a job is a job. When I see the bigger picture it’s not as awful as I feel like it is because in reality there are other people in the same boat.
Lastly, one really good lesson I have learned is we never if rarely give ourselves credit for our accomplishments and we should celebrate even the small ones.

I am going to continue pushing to write more and do what I love because you can always make time for what you love I think. I’m planning on every Friday. Don’t quote me please. Until next time.